* I’ve always been too afraid of things I’ve been told. I didn’t get my drivers license until I was 20 yrs old partially because I was terrified of other drivers on the road. Tonight after finally feeling confident to drive down a road I usually go out of my way to avoid I was given the choice to either let a car side sweep me or crash into the guardrail on a narrow two lane road twisting off into a god knows what below. And I suppose I chose what I thought was life in comparison to driving off the road and falling to my death and default got hit brutally by another car leaving my sisters car undrivable. Both of the driver sides doors are totaled and the back tire/rim needs to be replaced. I am ok which is all that’s life or death important but I feel robbed of my safety and sanity and any progress I had been making in my life. My daily fight of fear of dumb things, every dollar I’ve saved up to buy myself a car will now be spent on fixing the car I in no way had any fault in the downfall. I feel unsafe and overwhelming disgusted by the fact that someone could do something like they did then not even slow down to see if they actually killed someone or not. I am so grateful of my life and the people that came and helped me or have supported me in the past and I am just so tired of this constant stream of bad luck I can’t seem to escape.
* my life didn’t flash before my eyes but the bright lights from your headlights effortlessly crashing into mine can’t seem to leave my mind